Where have all the good people gone?

I have been given a wonderful graduation gift from my grandparents recently. It was 2 weekends ago when I was told I would receive a 2004 Pontiac Grand AM and was able to pick up the car later in the week. I owe nothing on the car and they want nothing in return then for me to be kind to other people and work hard at something that makes me happy. I am truly blessed to have such wonderful people in my life that will give me something so special and then want no money in return. It made me think that people that this are hard to find these days.

I always find it interesting these days that in order to do someone a favor you have to give them something in return in equal or more value. Whatever happen to the days of doing something nice for someone just for the sake of being nice? Why can't you choose to do something nice out of the kindness of your heart? I guess maybe I was brought up differently. I do nice things for people and most of the time don't ask for much back, if anything at all. I can't even begin to tell you the number of times I've babysat my siblings for free so my parents could go out. And it doesn't bother me in the least that they don't pay me, for I do it because I enjoy doing it. I do nice things for people because that's what a good person does.

Maybe this is why I've let people in the past take advantage of me. Because I'm too nice of a person. Because I don't ask for much in return I get used. It got to a point where I was being TOO nice. It's sad to think that this can actually happen but there came a point in time where I had to step back and simply say, "No." It was hard for me to do at first, but now that I'm older I know my limits. I know who I can turn to and who will be there for me always, no matter what.

Thanks for memories

I can finally say that it's officially over between John and I. I know you are probably wondering why the hell I'm still talking to him but I can assure you there was good reason. Something happened that put things into a different perspective about his relationship that he has with Darcy... to a point where his mother, friends and I are very concerned about him. This relationship he has with Darcy is an unhealthy one and I know we aren't dating so it's really none of my business but I still do care about him and am worried about his physical being. Since the time that me and John have split I have (as well as other people that care about him) have noticed a change in his behavior. He has become a completely different person and does things that he normally wouldn't do. He has completely isolated himself from not just me but everyone else that he use to care about. She is emotionally and mentally abusive to him that it has changed him. The John that I see now, isn't the same John I dated and it scares me and everyone else around him. So last night I made one last attempt in trying to help him but as you can see, that didn't work out so well. He is still denying everything I had to say. Now I'm at a loss at what else I can do but I guess there is nothing else that I CAN do. I can't help someone who isn't willing to help themselves.

I can't take the stress anymore. We are no longer on talking terms and remain to be so until SHE is out of the picture. Until then, I need to move on with my life and whatever happens, happens. All I want is for him to be happy and if he is happy being friends with her, then so be it. But if that's the case, then I want nothing to do with him because that's not the John that I know and love.

Let's say I break into your house

Let's say I break into your house

A lady wrote the best letter in the Editorials in ages!!!
It explains things better than all the baloney you hear on TV.

Her point:

Recently large demonstrations have taken place across the country protesting the fact that Congress is finally addressing the issue of illegal immigration.

Certain people are angry that the US might protect its own borders, might make it harder to sneak into this country and, once here, to stay indefinitely.

Let me see if I correctly understand the thinking behind these protests.

Let's say I break into your house.

Let's say that when you discover me in your house, you insist that I leave.


But I say, "No! I like it here. It's better than my house. I've made all the beds and washed the dishes and did the laundry and swept the floors. I've done all the things you don't like to do. I'm hard-working and honest (except for when I broke into your house)."


According to the protesters:


You are Required to let me stay in your house
You are Required to feed me
You are Required to add me to your family's insurance plan
You are Required to Educate my kids
You are Required to Provide other benefits to me & to my family



My husband will do all of your yard work because he is also hard-working and honest. (except for that breaking in part).


If you try to call the police or force me out, I will call my friends who will picket your house carrying signs that proclaim my RIGHT to be there.


It's only fair, after all, because you have a nicer house than I do, and I'm just trying to better myself. I'm a hard-working and honest, person, except for well, you know, I did break into your house.
And what a deal it is for me!!!


I live in your house, contributing only a fraction of the cost of my keep, and there is nothing you can do about it without being accused of cold, uncaring, selfish, prejudiced, and bigoted behavior.


Oh yeah, and I DEMAND that you learn MY LANGUAGE!!! so that you can communicate with me.


Why can't people see how ridiculous this is?!

America is populated and governed by idiots.

If you agree, pass it on (in English).
If not blow it off.........
along with your future Social Security funds and a lot of the former benefits of being an American Citizen.

The time has come

The time has come for me to stop listening to other people. I've come to a point in my life where I need to realize that I'm old enough to make my on decisions. It's time for me to make myself happy, even if that mean disappointing others. I need to live life the way that I want to, not other people. I know people are just trying to help because lately I have been dealing with a lot of crap but I've heard enough. I appreciate your concern about me but I'm ready to make my own decisions. You are still welcome to give me advice, but don't expect me to always listen to it; especially when you don't know the whole story. I've learned the hard way not to tell people EVERYTHING that goes on in my life and sometimes I just need someone to talk to, without the opinion of others. I know more recently people have been trying to help me with a difficult situation and have appreciated all the love and support from people, but trust me, even though you may think so, you don't know the whole story. Some new things have come up that I care not to tell you and would like to keep it that way. I guess all I'm saying is don't judge the decisions that I make, because it is for a good reason: It's what I want to do

Another sleepless night...

I feel lost. I love you but at the same time hate you. I say don't talk to me when all I want to do is hear your voice. I say don't call me but constantly check my phone to see if I even have one little message from you. My heart can't take it anymore. I love you... but I don't want to love you anymore because it causes too much pain. I've been having nightmares, causing me to wake up at night and not being able to sleep. I don't have someone to protect anymore. I'm confused about what I want anymore. I think about you constantly, of everything we've been through together and bring back happy memories. You make me happy but at the same time really mad. I don't know what happen to you but I want the old John back. The John that loved me and cared about me. The John that made me happy. The John that didn't care what people thought of him.

I don't know what to do anymore. My heart feels empty and torn into pieces. I cry whenever I think about you or talk to you. I need to know that you love me back because at the moment I don't feel that you do. You would not put me through this much pain if you did. I need you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.